Sunday, January 4, 2009

Of Contrasts..

Yellow back, Blog! Long time.. But was caught up.. In things that can be classified as 'Moral Obligations'.. yeah.. whatever.

Oh I got a new kitty home..He was screaming his throat out that day on the road, was really hungry (could have eaten a whole horse), and the most endearing grubby, dirty thing I had seen in months..So yeah..He is as big as my index finger, and about as fierce as a blood-thirsty monster.So obviously, his name is 'Monster'! :-) M looking for a good family for him.. but secretly, he is too adorable to let go of! (shrugs) ( Rite now the Monster resides on my lap, dozing off from his many rendez-vous with vicious terrors unknown.. :-) )

Other than that, as exam woes haunt everybody else around me, I am looking forward as usual. Who can control what has already happened? So chuck.. I have learnt to let go of the past long ago.. And past would mean the minute that just ticked away too..

So yeah, The Exam finally ends this Friday.. What after that? I was quite surprised at myself when I mentioned this aloud.. Am I so clueless?? Hell no! I have French to rejoin, wardrobes to clean out, rooms to revamp, places to explore, books to read, movies to watch,getting back to my beloved keyboard.. oh yeah, hair to cut.. :-) the usual 'catching up' with activities which were rescheduled on the priority list due to something that is supposedly trés important.. (read: exams) So then I wonder why I voiced such a question-What do I do in my free time? Woah! Was it just because.. of contrast..?-I was in warmth yesterday and when thought without it,life suddenly seemed so cold,that I was lost.. Maybe for a fraction of a moment..But still..like I was revolted even at the precise moment I was voicing that question, but I still said it..It was vital.. to come face-to-face with that emotion..To cross that particular check-point..It had its own beauty.. ..But, I need to shake my head, and focus.. Like I have said before, its warmth created by me, that would give me the most comfort.. My choices, yes, they have their own warmth, souls close to me, yes, I agree, but its my own inherent warmth that needs to be nurtured and kept going on for my survival.

Contrasts, will remain.. Will continue to mark blacks, whites, grays in my life.. The test lies in recognizing the beauty of each shade.

Au revoir till the next check-point then!

4 comments:

tropical seagull said...

has monster found a family yet? :) i was part of PFA, a long time back. abstained from eating meat and stuff. but kinda went back on my promise when mum offered me chicken! lol! hope your exams went well. a bientot!
ps: thanks for the wishes!

rebelle said...

:-) Monster has indeed found a family..but u knw how it is.. its so very difficult to let go! :-( I eat fish once in 2 or 3 blue moons.. can't bear to eat nething else.. I dont eat nething with a face.. :-)

tropical seagull said...

oh dont u worry, you'll probably find something thats hard to let go of you as well!
i'd love to have had a pet; too bad, folks at home didnt let me have one... do you have a pet?

rebelle said...

yep a kitty kat.. n lots of stray dogs whom i look after.. :-)